In the darkness of the night ...
I wander around the house with Enigma music floating around the space.
I refuse to go to sleep... However, I want to sleep!
Life, has been a painful journey... I struggle as I try to complete it and at the end of the day, I hate myself.
Sleeping is the only way I find, to a heaven where I can forget all the unhappiness ...
Where my brain doesn't need to think at all!
So I want to sleep but, the most painful thing is that I will wake up, knowing it's yet another stressful day to go by...
Therefore I refuse to go to sleep, because I refuse to wake up and face another ... day.
As my brain tells me it's getting tired of thinking ...
I go to bed like every time and I ... I say this little prayer:
God, I don't ever want to wake up again.
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